Saturday, April 21, 2012

on rape

It is polite to say to someone "I understand" or "I'm sorry" or perhaps on fb 2day omg.

For some things, though, empathy is not enough and understanding in not possible.

I suspect being a victim of rape is in that category.

However, I do understand more than I did months ago.

A neighbor broke into my house.  Smashed a window, stole a few things, including a laptop.  I still don't feel safe in my own house.  I still carry my new laptop w/me at all times.  When entering the house, I check all the windows to see if any are smashed.

No one touched or harmed my body but my mind has been messed with.

I am on my computer much less often and blog seldom.  Not just time but motivation.

I suspect I will be a different juror if ever I am picked again.

And I understand someone running around his neighborhood w/a gun just because neighbors have been robbed.

I look in awe at people who maintain sanity after rape.

Oremus